Patiently awaiting; ears alert for the trumpet sound.
May 29, 2009
May 28, 2009
Only when I experience the frustrations of dissension every once a while
Then I know how to appreciate the simple, yet profound joy they bring.
All your children shall be taught by the Lord,and great shall be the peace of your children.
A deep sense of sadness to see what is around me, yet joy at what is coming for me and my family.
For most, it sure sounds like I am going through some form of depression.
But I assure you I am not.
Instead, I feel that I have woken up from a deep slumber
A slumber filled with discontentment, confusion, thankless-ness, fear and cynicism.
I have woke up to what I deem as reality
A reality of what my faith (in God) is suppose to bring;
Love and appreciation for my family,
A sense of purpose for my life
And an urgency to make every single minute of my life on this earth count.
What more can I ask for?
Time with my child
Being there for my husband
And my love ones.
I am starting to look at life from the outside
Disconnecting from the materials of the world
Loved ones are the only thing that truly matters now
And the joy from this love is nothing but bliss
May 21, 2009
Life is transient,
Which is becoming more apparent with each day.
I have to stop worrying,
but start to enjoy every moment that God gives.
Life is a true oxymoron.
It can be so beautiful, yet so hard at the same time.
May 19, 2009
May 16, 2009
May 13, 2009
I have started initiating K to the potty, starting with books like 'Everyone Poops' by Taro Gomi. A book that takes a matter-of-fact attitude towards the bowel activity and its outcome. For a toddler, it is informative and it has worked to ensure that K has regular bowel movements every 2 days. But for me, this probably qualifies as 'toddler toilet humour', quite literally, with its quirky illustrations.
Before I am able to start K on a 'potty-going' routine (morning, after meals, before nap time), his reply has been "Don't want," whenever I ask him if he wants to use the potty. I have also decided against using 'underwear training method', until I see more signs of potty readiness.
'Children whose parents postpone intensive training until the early to middle of the third year are generally fully trained without four months. Starting before 27 months simply makes the process take longer.'
(Blum & Nemeth, 2003, Pediatrics 111)
I have decided that K can dictate his own pace for potty-training, and I will not be pressured by the 90% of 2 year olds out there who are already in their training pants.
May 10, 2009
May 9, 2009
It was all very exciting and tempting.
It came at an opportune time,
since I have been thinking lately, how I am slowly losing my relevance to the working world.
The SAHM honeymoon period is finally over,
after 10 months without a job and staying home with K,
I wonder how much I am missing out by not working full time.
Probably not much, I try to convince myself, since the economy is in doldrums.
This chance at making some extra money seemed extremely attractive.
So I was all geared up to start working on it and put in my best effort
...all for like two days.
My rational mind sounded the alarm bells,
I asked myself if I will have enough time to manage this,
and concerned dh asked questions like "Is there long term sustainability?"
Besides, my online business just started and it is keeping me busy enough.
Then I think about K,
about how he was the key reason why SAHM status came about.
Even with newly acquired WAHM status,
I still have a healthy work life balance,
since my time at work is limited to the hours when K is asleep.
I should really stop worrying about tomorrow,
since today, there is enough to think about.
Somehow, things will have a way of working out in the end.
For all I know, I may never need to be a salaried employee in the corporate rat race?
Well, life is always easier when u see your glass as half full.
I still think it is worthwhile not to be a FTWM, when I can always be around to take videos of random things such as this:
I have just purchased an annual fee of USD$59 for VIMEO plus account. Got tired of waiting for my videos to upload with a free account. Thus, so as to armotise this investment, it will be more random videos in this blog moving forward. Besides, dh just reminded 2 weeks ago to take more videos of K, as videos are one of the best memories to keep from K's adorable toddler age.
May 8, 2009
We came armed with hats, sunblock, snacks and drinks for the boys and both Seth and K sure showed that they were totally unperturbed by the hot and humid weather.
We decided explore the park near the Cluny Road entrance, to give the boys the opportunity to take in the sights and sounds of nature.
K, started his walk in the park by chasing after the pigeons, and gleefully caused distressed to the birds which were at first, peacefully feeding on scraps dropped by other visitors. This caused a little bit of distress to me, as I have this fear of pigeons flying too close.
I had to be predictable and took a pic of the two of them sitting on the long bow branch of the Tembusu tree. A 100-over year old tree which some of us might recognise, as it is featured on the back of the Singapore $5 note and a common feature seen in wedding photographs taken at Botanic Gardens.
As seen in the video, K gamely alternated between his two favorite expressions for photo-taking; his smile/grimace and 'coy handsome face'. I am even more convinced now that K has a natural flair for acting and loves to show off when there is an 'audience'. Most likely it will be "Speech and Drama Lessons, here we come!", when he turns 3 or 4 years old.
When we started walking back in the late morning, K wanted to take a picture of Seth. It was really amusing to see two toddlers imitating what adults do; Seth posed for the picture and K became the 'photographer'. Too bad I did not have another camera on hand to catch the boys in action.
This is the photo that K took for Seth...
My toddler never fails to amaze me.
May 4, 2009
I glued the pages of his book back and when I told him that his nice book has been fixed, he turned to me, gave me a hug and said, "Thank you, mummy."
All that frustrations and impatience that I have experiencing the past couple of days with my strong-willed and stubborn toddler, dissolved into thin air with that hug.
This is just a little nudge to remind me, that the challenges that I have been encountering in my parenting journey thus far is definitely worth it.